a meditation on my attempt to abandon my fears in 2008.
::”waking up” by Piano Magic::
“a man’s feelings are more rational than his mind” -Ralph Ellison
A few weeks ago was the annual New Yorker festival and Miranda July was speaking and I waited 7 hours to make sure I had a seat in the front row to breathe the same air as she… and I did! I also made her a dvd with this video on it -I’m basically dedicating my life to her. :: music by my roommate, Josh Anderson ::
it’s funny how a little rain can pour down so many memories, (in this case, a friend’s memory). ::”summer water” by Colleen:: Click here to watch
I’m an insecure person, let’s just start with that. I poured a lot of what I felt before, during (with the anticipation of The Night Buffalo), and after the festival into this vlog, a lot of which newly motivated by watching my new box set of Six Feet Under on a loop. But it seems that the windows to what is possible, are clear, now that I know it can all end so quickly. so I better shut the fuck up, quit bitching, and just do- it is so on 2007… and even more on in 2008!
*thanks to Tina, Cedric, FYI (Film Your Issue), and Zadi -without you, my trip to Sundance wouldn’t have happened! ::”New Year’s Prayer” by Jeff Buckley:: Click here to watch

nyc xmas
Originally uploaded by symbiopsychotaxiplasm.
there’s been a brawl. film school finals are winning this battle for my sleep and more importantly, vlogging time, so much that I pretty much forgot it was christmas -even in new york city. Click here to watch
:thanks sarah for the sounds:
this vlog took me longer than any other video I’ve done because of the emotionally precarious nature of it. While making it, there was a genuine discovery about myself and my insecurity as an artist in relation to the film that I went home to premiere, (which I DP’d), and its effects on my perception of interaction and lonliness in New York. ::”Sleep” by Azure Ray:: Click here to watch